Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Forever.....




I believe in 'forever'... that's a really, and I mean REALLY long time, eh?
The circles of friends and loved ones, that make the larger circle, amazing isn't it?
I know I'm rambling... it is, after all, part of the blog description... I'm trying very hard to bring some coherency to my thoughts and in writing them out but feeling like I'm woefully missing the mark...

First let me apologize... for lack of communication via email, comments left on blogs, I've gone deep inside, processing, it's where I need to be right now.

I will be back, but right now....

You see, a friend has continued on his journey from this particular plane of existence... as in no longer walking this earth as we know it... and it's hit me hard, I was just days away from going and seeing him, thinking there would be time, but he surprised us all, and I'm talking 'cutting us down at the knees' surprising us all.

I first met him when I was 14, that was a long time ago... as in 40 years... but absolutely nothing compared with 'forever'...
Bobby and I both have our own history/herstory with Mike and the information produced anguish in both of us...

Anyway, maybe someday the story of Mike will make it to the pages here... but for now, no.
I've been reading the pages in my soul, page by page, with all the emotions you could possibly experience, page by page....

I know I've written it before..... I do believe that souls travel in packs.... and this particular soul? I've known... forever.... and will continue to do so.

Just thought I'd put this out there, let you know why I've not been by, or answering email... I'll get through it, and return.


Thanks.
I love you all.
Go visit a really old friend, one you've not seen in awhile... one who you know is firmly tucked in your soul for all time....

Happy knitting and continue making good time.

34 Comments:

Blogger nonizamboni said...

My dear friend--I'm so sorry about your loss. Oh, how far back you and Mike went back and there are no words to describe his leaving; but I'm glad you're safe and warm inside your soul sorting, 'page by page.' The pack is even more valuable with this new traveler. You'll see your friend someday.
Sending you much love.
[p.s. your thoughts always make good sense to me]

23 October, 2007 10:04  
Blogger Dana said...

Marianne, I was so very sorry to read about Mike's passing. There's really nothing that can be said to make your grief easier, but please know that I'm thinking and praying for both you and Bobby. Revel in your memories and take all the time you need. Love you.

23 October, 2007 10:30  
Blogger Saisquoi said...

Oh Marianne, I am so very, very sorry. Take all the time you need, knowing that we're here for you if you need us and when you're ready...

xo

23 October, 2007 11:01  
Blogger Knit and fall back in it said...

I am so sorry. I know there is nothing I could say or do to make the pain go away-but believe you me-if I could, I would. You are in my prayers.

23 October, 2007 11:27  
Blogger Faren said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be sending healing thoughts your way. You've reminded me I really need to call a few friends.

23 October, 2007 11:32  
Anonymous marti said...

I am so incredibly sorry. Your words are exquisitly written, as well as the photography and together they convey so much.

23 October, 2007 11:37  
Anonymous pat said...

I'm sorry, Marianne.
(You express yourself so beautifully in writing)

23 October, 2007 12:01  
Blogger Tola said...

love abd virtual hugs to you. being the ones who remain after someone has "graduated" is hard.

23 October, 2007 12:35  
Anonymous Gretch said...

you know.

23 October, 2007 12:42  
Blogger Julie said...

Oh Marianne,
My heart hurts for you; please take care of yourself. I will be thinking good thoughts for you and Bobby, hoping that the good memories and the love you shared with your dear friend will help you through.

Take all the time you need, but know that there are many of us out here for you should you feel the need to "talk".

Love ya,
XOXO
Julie

23 October, 2007 13:12  
Blogger Charity said...

Oh, Marianne, I'm so sorry. I hope you and Bobby can walk this one through together. We're here for you.

23 October, 2007 14:06  
Blogger Dianne said...

Sending you a bouquet of hugs and love..I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend. My sincerest condolences to both you and Bobby..and know you are in my thoughts and prayers..love you bunches~

23 October, 2007 14:06  
Blogger Glenna C said...

::hugs::
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, I hope you are finding some comfort today and my thoughts are with you.

23 October, 2007 14:13  
Blogger Sarah said...

Ah Marianne, wishing you the time and space you need, hope you are finding solace for your soul.

23 October, 2007 16:13  
Blogger Robin said...

You know I have you in my thoughts and prayers...I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Your words are SO touching, what a wonderful tribute to friendship.
Take care of yourself...

23 October, 2007 17:03  
Blogger Peg-woolinmysoup said...

I am sorry, but I know some of what you are experiencing. My 58 year-old niece died this am from pancreatic cancer - under 6 mos. since diagnosis. Her Mom died after 18 mos. from the same disease.
It is devastating, but as you say we will go on!
Sorry!

23 October, 2007 17:20  
Blogger Emma said...

I'm so sorry.

23 October, 2007 17:56  
Blogger Nikki said...

Oh Marianne... many loves and hugs for y'all...

23 October, 2007 20:54  
Anonymous Jason said...

Oh Marianne, I am so sorry. Many hugs to you, and to Bobby. I am glad that you two are there for each other. My thoughts are with you.

23 October, 2007 23:37  
Blogger picperfic said...

don't beat yuorself up about not going to see your friend....although your words are very wise, the ones about go and visit someone special...oh yes!

I guess this is a phase of life we all reach as we get older, it's a tough one to deal with, especially if the departed friend is our age. I wish I could hug you....can you feel it?

24 October, 2007 03:18  
Blogger Jo said...

{XOXOX}

24 October, 2007 04:31  
Blogger schmom8889 said...

I'm sorry. I hope you are comforted by all the prayers you are receiving, count mine among them.

24 October, 2007 16:14  
Blogger Kitty Mommy said...

I'm so sorry. You are in my thoughts.

Jen

25 October, 2007 11:36  
Blogger JudyMac said...

Simply...HUGS!

25 October, 2007 12:52  
Blogger Angela Cox said...

Very sorry to hear that , all of us are thinking about you. These things take time and you know that one day you will meet again.angie , Jeff and Holly xxx

26 October, 2007 01:25  
Blogger hege said...

Dear Marianne, I so sorry about your friend. Best wishes to you and to his family. Take good care.

26 October, 2007 13:21  
Blogger Ms. Knitingale said...

Holding you close in my heart, Sweetie...Like I always am.

27 October, 2007 09:33  
Blogger Knitting Linguist said...

Oh, Marianne, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. You are in my thoughts.

27 October, 2007 11:39  
Blogger Norma said...

Sending virtual hugs your way, Marianne.

28 October, 2007 20:01  
Blogger Granny Smith said...

Dear Marianne,
If it's possible to love someone whom one has only met via blogs (and I think it is), I want to say I love you and am sorry for your sorrow. Sort it over slowly and take all the time it needs.

01 November, 2007 13:58  
Blogger Dee said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Your blog posting is a wonderful tribute to Mike.

01 November, 2007 14:38  
Blogger Sheepish Annie said...

I'm just starting to catch up with some of my more recent commenters' blogs. This seems a bit late, but better late than never.

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. It is always so startling when one of those people who is a fixture in our lives is suddenly not there anymore. You have my deepest sympathies. Take care.

01 November, 2007 19:24  
Blogger JudyMac said...

Dear Marianne,
I know that you are not blogging at the moment, but I would just like to say that your popping over to my blog has been wonderful.
We are all thinking of you, and if virtual hugs were wool, you would be living in one well insulated house!
HUGS :)

05 November, 2007 15:07  
Blogger midgeling said...

Lovely photos. I wish you well. Life can very well indeed cut you off a the knees. But as long as we continue to take care of the rest of those in our packs we will survive the hard times.

06 November, 2007 16:39  

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