Saturday, November 17, 2007

Out of the Woods.....

Yes, but they're still close by and really, although there were rather dark stretches, I also walked through sun dappled clearings, the kind that take your breath away by the sheer beauty... mostly I enjoyed them... how to explain this? I didn't mind these dark woods. They weren't terrifying, like some can be....and I did indeed feel all your hands taking mine, walking a ways with me and let me tell you, it has been a huge comfort and thank you and I love each and every one of you who came and took some of those steps with me...but these woods, they just were.


Getting the call from my good friend Bob Wilson, who lives in Omaha, he was packing his bag and hitting the road to come down for Mike's service and of course he was going to stay with us, our very first 'house guest' and I couldn't have chosen a more fitting one, seriously.

And... on the morning of the service taking Avery to an appointment and parking my car in a spot that gave me a view of a small creek running through the YMCA property with very tall trees growing along the banks, it was around 10 in the morning so there was still morning sun and the leaves might have been wet or naturally shiny...with a breeze blowing through and making those leaves dance and the sun bouncing off them and creating such a beautiful sparkly event... a kerjillion little flashing lights that took my breath away.
See, that's JUST the sort of thing that Mike would catch, and be completely delighted by... when Avery got back in the car I pointed my finger and said 'watch'.... and he did... and exclaimed "wow, that's just the sort of thing Mike would point out to us when we were kids..." exactly.

Bob making the statement about how his phone would ring and he'd pick it up and hear Mike's voice, not saying 'hello' but "Can you believe this? Are you watching this?" and that yes, he WAS watching whatever it was.... and I remember those calls, I had gotten plenty of them, I had also watched him make plenty of them.

The wonderful gathering in those woods, folks I hadn't seen in quite a while, telling 'Mike Stories' and laughing through the tears.... wonderful stories, most I had heard from Mike or actually had been there... you see, I always enjoyed playing with the guys, whether it was playing pool or pinball, golf, tennis, fishing... and being treated like one of the guys but just a little better... you know?

I was feeling more at peace until the day I decided to try and find a friend's number on the caller ID list, and you know how you can get all those 'no name no number' calls or just the telemarketer calls (I never answer those) so I decided while I was going down the list to delete the crap numbers and so I'm merrily going about this task and BAM... his name pops up, Mike had called on the 10th of Oct, 6:19pm. That was the day we moved Mom into our old house, I was there until late that evening... Mike didn't leave a message... so there were no bells or whistles sounding, no flashing lights to draw my attention to 'the list'... so... I didn't know. Come to find out that was the day the doc told him he had liver cancer... but that doc also told him he had a year to live, give or take a little, so he thought he had more time... we all thought he had more time but that 'year' give or take turned into 10 days, several of which he was very sick and ....... but I had no idea he had called and it really did break my heart.

Life continues though.... like having the yard aerated and reseeded... that aeration business though, leaves a mess, a mess resembling 100 6 month old mud puppies doing their business all over the yard, yech. Now keeping the leaves from getting too thick on the little baby grass, there are so many trees and I've been working hard to keep up with it, as in daily, and there are STILL plenty of the little rat still in the trees waiting for their moment of free fall...

I've been knitting!!!
yes, folks, I have. I have finished one of the surprise projects, bundled it off yesterday at the post office, priority, so I'm hoping they'll get it before Thanksgiving... they haven't a clue, hee. I just love that.

I've started a second project, it's not a secret project but I don't have photos of it yet.... I will. I'm also hoping to have it finished by Sunday in that my friend will be traveling to Nashville and I'd like it to be going with her. Oh... that's tomorrow... well, here's hoping, eh?

I have received many gifts and I would've posted about them, had every intention of posting about them but at the time just didn't have 'it' in me... I will now.

Back in September Dianne popped my cherry... my STR cherry!

This is such beautiful yarn, Nodding Violet, so ok, now I 'get' it... I DO. Dianne, thank you so very much...(oh, and it was Very Good for me, was it for you?)

Sweet Jo sent me a parcel in September also, look!

that's some of her own handspun yarn! I LOVE it, this photo does not do the colour justice, at all, it really is a beautiful soft colour, with flecks of colours.. I am so touched. She also sent a skein of Jitterbug and the other skein is called Chortle... this name tickles and pleases me no end as do both yarns... they're Gorgeous! and that chocolate? yep... YUM! and those are little hand made soaps, assorted flavours...Thank you Jo, you sweetie!

Next up is a 'home warming' from Gretchen, you all may not know this but Gretchen went through that whole moving thing this past year also and it was a bit of an 'ordeal from hell' for her, lots of delays, packing up a 2 story home and moving into a more modern loft and let me tell you, this woman has Taste. I've seen the photos. Beautiful. Stunning. So we exchanged home warming gifts and this woman can pack a picnic for me any old time...

would you look at those socks? STR socks... and they're heavenly. I immediately put them on and wore them for more days in a row that I'm embarrassed to admit to..... That red is angora... so soft... unbelievably soft and it's a gorgeous red... that other yarn is just as soft, we think it may be alpaca, it certainly feels like alpaca... or I swear, cashmere... it is THAT soft! Thank you Gretchen, for Everything!

Sweet Charity sent these,

a beautiful spindle, and the fibre roving colours are rich and Autumny and I love it and those are silk hankies!! yes they are! and the colours are spectacular..and the sock yarn and yes, this is a great book. I have been reading through it and although I haven't had much 'spare' time, what with all those leaves needing cleaned up I know I will... catch some time... after the leaves have all fallen... when it gets cold outside and I'll be warm and cozy and learning to spin and this warms my heart and spirit like you wouldn't believe. Thank you, Charity, North Woods Darling you are.

From Marianne, or who I affectionally call 'Muk'... she's a dearheart.....

would you look at those socks? They're so very pretty, those sweet cuffs, the yarn is incredibly soft, alpaca? They feel like a dream on, in fact, I immediately put them on and didn't take them off for a .... well.... you know....a 'number' of days! The photo doesn't do justice to the skein of sock yarn, it's beautiful, soft delicate blues with a bit of aqua shades, all naturally dyed, it's soft and beautiful and I love it! Thank you so very much, Marianne!

And yet another little parcel from Dianne...

this washcloth and soap mitt... just makes me happy looking at all the colours and I love this pattern, I had first seen it over at Nikki's and seriously, this is just happiness knit... (the soap is some organic lavender that is just delicious)... the cards are so sweet, the shepherd and the ... looks like llamas to me... Dianne, you Sweetheart, your thoughtfulness lifts my spirits so very much, Thank You! The card with the bird on it? Looks a bit like part of the woods.......

I am so humbled by all these gifts, incredibly humbled, I can't even begin to express just how much. Thank you.

That's going to be 'it' for this post... I have taken photos of 'my' room... I love 'my' room... and there's another surprise here which you'll see when I get back with the photos.

Until then, Happy Knitting to all and continue making good times...


Anonymous Anonymous said...

What wonderful friends you have. I'm glad to know that those dark woods had so many beautiful bright spots.

17 November, 2007 09:48  
Blogger Ambermoggie, a fragrant soul said...

Glad to hear your voice:) The dark woods are very necessary to appreciate the bright sunshine aren't they?
Sending love and hugs across the pond

17 November, 2007 10:33  
Blogger Robin said...

You've been on my mind...alot here lately!
You deserve all that "Knitterly Love"!!

17 November, 2007 10:33  
Blogger Nikki said...

What very lovely gifts... while I'm sorry to hear about the leaves and the baby grass, I am glad you saw the sun coming through the trees in the woods...


17 November, 2007 10:54  
Blogger picperfic said...

I didn't know I could do twisted rib, evenly, perfectly, without looking until I read this post! I knitted a whole half an inch in fingering yarn on 2.25mm needles! It is part of the cuff of my second Kyla mitten...I must finish them! I love this post, it moved me....I love the light twinkling through the changing and thinning autumn leaves. You deserve every single gift and more 'Mus'...just take your time, tending a garden is great therapy x

ps...I sent that email to you before I saw this post!

17 November, 2007 10:59  
Blogger Angela Cox said...

Didn't Amber put it so beautifully , what more can I say. Sending all our love anf hugs xx

17 November, 2007 11:34  
Blogger Knit and fall back in it said...

We have over 40 trees in our yard (it's a big yard) so around here the baby grass would just have to get tough or it wouldn't make it. We usually deal with a pile of leaves the size of our house every year.

I am glad that the grief is making way for the happy memories. Nothing can take those away form you.

17 November, 2007 11:41  
Blogger Faren said...

Glad to hear from you. It is always rough loosing a loved one, but it is good to remember the sunshine.
What great packages, looks like you had lots of love sent to you!

17 November, 2007 11:56  
Blogger Kitty Mommy said...

I'm so glad to hear that things are starting to feel better. I wish I were close enough to imitate Ms. Bean: put my arms around your neck and say "Dub yoo too. Beeeeg hug!"

17 November, 2007 12:02  
Blogger Glenna C said...

I send virtual hugs and well wishes! I am glad you are a little farther out of the woods. And what wonderful packages! I'm so glad you have some STR of your own now :D

17 November, 2007 14:59  
Blogger Hege said...

It's good to hear from you! Enjoy all your lovely gifts! :) Hope you are doing well.

17 November, 2007 17:44  
Blogger Norma said...

It's so nice to hear from you and to see that you can so eloquently write about the dark woods and brighter spots. Life can hand out some sours, can't it? Glad you're doing better. XO

18 November, 2007 07:37  
Blogger Emma said...

So good to have you back and posting. Especially with the lovely new yarns, socks, and other stuff! Looking forward to getting back into the swing of Knit Nite and hearing all about it.

18 November, 2007 10:30  
Blogger Dianne said...

Welcome Back My Dear Friend..Muchas Smoochas at you~

18 November, 2007 12:56  
Blogger Unknown said...

Marianne! Rushes over and hugs.
Those dark woods were very bad but I am so happy that you found your way through.
I love your presents they are all so scrummy :)

18 November, 2007 15:16  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

::hugs:: Love you, sweetie!

18 November, 2007 15:26  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sounds like you had a good healing time sharing memories of your good friend - I'm glad.

You've been in my thoughts daily.

18 November, 2007 19:56  
Blogger nonizamboni said...

Dear friend--reading your words made me cry, but mostly smile throughout. You so, so deserve all these gifts from the heart. You are like a sister to us and I know you can be counted on for a kind word, a 'warm blanket,' a hand in the storm and a share of your bounty because YOUR heart is so big. Glad you returned from the dark woods and know we had your back.
Keep raking!

19 November, 2007 08:04  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Time is funny. It heals things, it is way too short, or too long. But the time that you had at the wake and funeral sounds so perfectly chorographed. I think that Mike is still with you in those little things. I am so sorry for your loss, and your words for expressing it are perfect.

19 November, 2007 09:17  
Blogger Dana said...

Everyone's already written what was in my heart and head. Suffice it to say, I've been thinking of you daily and I'm happy to see that you're feeling a bit better.

Your description of Mike was lovely and he sounded like a wonderful person.


19 November, 2007 09:38  
Blogger Joanna said...

Hey you, great to see you, and what great gifts, now lets all sit down and have a knitpic...(knitters picnic) at the edge of the woods and watch the world go by xoxox

20 November, 2007 05:49  
Blogger Knitting Linguist said...

Hi, Marianne --
I'm so glad everyone has been taking such good care of you! I'm also glad that you've been feeling all of our support and long-distance hugs as you've gone through these woods. The packages look absolutely wonderful -- enjoy!

20 November, 2007 17:47  
Blogger Granny Smith said...

Welcome back into the sunshine! We all love you and hope the leaf removal doesn't keep you away from your knitting.

21 November, 2007 12:43  
Blogger Sheepish Annie said...

This was quite beautifully written. You've captured the feelings and thoughts that come with a loss. I'm so glad to hear that you are seeing the sun from time to time and that there has been comfort for you.

21 November, 2007 19:46  
Blogger Sarah said...

Sending you a hug lovely Marianne

22 November, 2007 13:52  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What a lovely post full of your good thoughts. Thank you for sharing! I echo JudyMac's idea of a picnic at the edge of the dark wood. I've found that the dark wood is often filled with stalwart comforting trees.

25 November, 2007 01:49  
Blogger midgeling said...

Awww, thanks for the good wishes. I loved hearing about the "Mike Stories" - those kind of things are always so neat to remember. They really help to chase the sadness away - even if a little bit.
My cousin's Grandma Granados was like my own grandma. Even though it has easily been 15 years since I have seen her and she has long since passed, I still love her dearly and remember so many things. I treasure her holding my cheeks in her palms and having her say right up close in my face "I love you so much. You are a good girl and don't you forget that." (I never have) Things like that stay with you forever.
I hope that things for you get a bit easier as time passes. Seeing those gifts you received made me smile at all the love and kindsness you are being sent. You will be in my prayers.

25 November, 2007 02:22  

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